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Friday, October 10th, 2008

Time:5:14 pm.
Mood: scared.
did you know 4000 minutes on a long distance call roughly equates to about $700?
...neither did we...
gimme some candy!.

Saturday, October 4th, 2008

Subject:week 4...
Time:4:34 am.
Mood: content.
ok...
so things have not slowed down since the word "go"...
life seems to be... kicking and screaming... trying to start...
i've found a new respect for several things...
things shouldnt be going so well...
this has never happened...
its like... winning the lottery on your birthday... on christmas... during a 4th of july celebration...
it just doesnt happen...
and on the same week... i get a call from an old bandmate wanting to restart the old band...
and then a random email from a bassist looking for a job...
and then... i found what i was looking for...
its such a strange situation...
it was like i looked everywhere... but couldnt see it... and the whole time... it had been right there... beside me... sometimes literally...
she's been there for years...
and i never noticed...
i dont know why...
was she overlooked?
no...
cause i saw her... alot...
and that whole year... i lost my mind... and i did everything i could to forget it and everyone involved...
but she wouldnt let me go...
i dont know why...
even when i flat out told her it was guilt by association... and to never speak to me again...
she still stayed with me...
i swear...
i'd give anything to go back and change it...
i could've ruined my life...
i did ruin a little over a year of it...
but she finally caught me...
in my little self induced downward spiral...
and she's helping me out of it...
or i'm helping her into it...

i found what i was looking for...
but in the back of my mind i cant help but wonder...
did she find what she was looking for?
gimme some candy!.

Sunday, September 14th, 2008

Time:9:15 pm.
Mood: happy.
i found her...
and then we kissed under a very bright moon...
gimme some candy!.

Saturday, August 16th, 2008

Time:2:39 am.
Mood: accomplished.
went to some new sushi bar...
talked to a cute chick...
got a phone number...
and a fortune cookie...
left the number there >.<
but the fortune reads "Don't Panic"

and on an unrelated note...
since i cant actually tell the difference between irony and coincidence...
i've decided to create a third option.
i call it... Ironioincidenic
2 perverts - gimme some candy!.

Tuesday, July 15th, 2008

Time:4:23 am.
Mood: depressed.
as i sit here...
in my zolpedom stupor...
i realize how... just plain aimless life has gotten...
its like... i have the gun... i have the bullet... but i have nothing to shoot...
i had 3 bands lined up to record... they all backed out...
i dont know why... was it something i did? was it something i didnt do?
i find out one of the few people around that even comes close to 'friend' has been stealing my equipment over the years...
everyone's gone...
everyone leaves... yeah... sure... i'm used to that... thats how its always been... thats how it'll always be... but they've never all left at once before...
sure its easy enough to just get out and do stuff...
but there's nothing i want to do...
get your license...
there's no where i want to go...
all the rest of the times... the very minute something leaves... something shows up in its place... like... a band leaves... and then kc shows up the next weekend with a show we have to play...
thats what i could use right about now...
i could use kc... he's long past due to show up all "dj! we should start a band!" "ok!"
bout 5 years past due...
but he's tied down... tied down good this time...
speaking of tied down...
did you know every girl is taken?
i sure didnt... till i started looking...
sure enough.
everyone's gone somewhere... got something to do when they get there... and got someone to do it with while they're there...
i dont want sympathy...
i dont want pity...
if you want to give me something...
give me more zolpedom...
i'm running low.
but seriously... i spend my days arguing over art that i couldnt care less about...
this is a new level of hopelessness...


ps... post-modernism is bs.
gimme some candy!.

Thursday, June 26th, 2008

Time:3:59 am.
well...
the pharmacists here... SUCK...
they think they're gods of medicines...
for example...
there are 3 pharmacies in hartsville...
a local mom & pop drug store... walmart... rite aid? something like that... bought out eckerds...
anyway...
a pharmacist should have common sense... and when something is fishy... they should look into it.
but these demigods of dope are just plain idiots...
my mom and dad are pretty heavily medicated... mom went through 6 months of chemo and radiation... dad has type 2 diabetes...
we started out at eckerds... mom needed a certain medication... more or less a 'pre-chemo' medicine that basically would get her body propared for the treatments... simple but vital perscription... 5 pills... pharmacists takes it upon himself to tell her that it was his opinion that she only needed 1 pill... after he had a nice long talk with the doctor... mom got 4...
alright...
but then this same pharmacist gets power hungry... wants more control...
mom starts treatments... the SURGEN gives mom a perscription for pain killers... with several refills... because... this is going to be a year long set of treatments...
eckerd pharmacist will only give half the pills... and refuses to give refills... stating that that doctor wrote no refills...
this goes on several times... it got to the point where mom would make a copy of the script... and when the pharmacist would say "the script said no refills" she'd pull out the copy and show him the 5 marked under refills or whatever the number was...
so we stop going there... on to the mom & pop place!
they were nice... at first...
then they started asking questions... and giving us mean glares when we went there... i dont think they liked us...
they started doing the same thing... giving us only half filled perscriptions... and these arnt persciptions for like... xanax or oxycontin... this is blood preasure medicines... insulin... various meds for mom's treatments... so i mean... its not like we were getting high off of this crap or selling it on the streets...
during this time i started on paxil... which is an antidepressant... and its not something you can just stop... once you take it... you're pretty much stuck on it... and you have to ween off it for several weeks...
well... they gave me not quite half the written perscription... and refused to give the rest...
WITHDRAWS ARE HORRIBLE.
but they couldnt care less...
ok! so on to the last place... walmart...
and they were GREAT.
we actually got what the doctors wanted us to have.
but then they brought in a new pharmacist... who is just plain evil.
she would give my dad his insulin... but refuse to give him the needles...
and then would give the needles... but not the insulin...
that merits a nice big "WHAT THE HELL?!?!"
then mom got some sinus medicine... the pharmacist basically did everything she could to keep mom from getting it... she even brought in the insurance company to back her up...
so no sinus meds.

now... mom's on alot of stuff...
the treatments caused some complications and nerve damage...
she now gets pain killers about once a month.
its not even a major pain killer... i think its vicodin...
well... today this walmart pharmacist from hell decided mom had had enough.
so she calls the doctor saying my mom's been on this pain medicine for about a year... and that she's thinking about reporting my mom to DHEC...
DHEC???
what the hell does the department of health and enviromental control have to do with this?
it bears repeating...
WHAT THE HELL!?
if the doctors didnt think mom should have these medicines... they wouldnt perscribe them...
they're the doctors...
they should know...
not some med school drop out jack off thats mad at the world.
and if you're a pharmacist or thinking of becoming one and are offended by my little rant...
SCREW YOU.
if i ever see you, i'll punch you in the throat.


and on a side note...
my uncle lost the election...
turns out the other canidate had people calling voters and telling them my uncle was a member of the kkk (which he is not... and in a primarily black voter area that didnt go over so well... )... and other told everyone if they had voted before... they cant vote again... and again... more BS...
but mudslinging works... byrd is a liar and a political puppet... the powers that be in this county wanted someone they could control... and thats what they got.
both tactics worked though...
frist vote... alot of people voted... and my uncle lost by less than 20 votes...
second vote... hardly anyone voted... i think in one area out of around 700 votes only about 40 voted...
my uncle lost by 70%...
my uncle was chief deputy for 12 years... and during that time alot of progress was made... all patrols cars got cameras... all officers got tazers and personal cameras... several drug dogs... and crime has pretty much been on the decline...
byrd (the mudslinger...) is chief deputy in some backwater town... lamar maybe?
well... he has no management background whatsoever... to the point that his own sheriff refused to leave him in charge and would leave one of the lieutenants in charge when he'd go off...
his whole campaign was made up of 2 things... mudslinging and telling everyone how horrible the state of the darlington county sheriff's deparment was in... which isnt true... at all...
he really played on the whole "CHANGE!" thing...
his plan is to go in and basically remove everything and everyone from before... and bring in his own hand picked department...
which basically means... fire the veteran deputies and hire buddies inexperienced children as favors...
now a friend pointed out that thats typical politics and the presidents do it all the time...
well... yeah... i guess they do...
but the president and his cronies have pretty much nothing to do with me...
sure they take my money... but thats basically it...
where as now our local well being is going to be in the hands of... some highschool drop out upperclass silver spooned yokels...

predictions for 09...
crime will run rampant in darlington county...
people will call on the deputies for help... but they'll be too busy selling pot on alphabet hill to answer the call...
and i give byrd a year after january 1st.
i'm guessing he'll get caught with his pants down bent over taking bribes... prison style.


PS...
YOU NEED HATE BY THE DELGADOS!!!!!!
YOU NEEEEEEEED IT.
gimme some candy!.

Tuesday, June 10th, 2008

Time:11:18 pm.
well... there was a slight scandal with the sheriff vote today... the voter registration here supports a particular canidate... so alot of them filled out the ballots for the guy they wanted and then just had the elderly at the nursing homes sign them...
it's my belief that the registration people that do this... should be lined up against a wall and shot.
no fines...
no prison...
but a single bullet to the head.
gimme some candy!.

Sunday, June 8th, 2008

Time:9:59 pm.
Mood: tired.
woooooow...
new jersey was super fun...
i got randomly selected at the airport on the way back...
got to 2nd base with a rentacop named stephen!
wooo!
got back monday... laid around for a few days...
didnt even bother to unpack cause i had to go to the beach this weekend... again...
got back today...
i need a nice long 72 hour nap...


and Barack Hussein Obama...
i think it'd be waaaay waaaaaay funnier if his name was Borat Stalin Fitler...
gimme some candy!.

Wednesday, May 28th, 2008

Time:5:31 pm.
Mood: nervous.
i'm about to leave to stay over at the beach...
i fly out to new jersey tomorrow morning around 5...
kinda nervous...
havnt been on a plane since i was like 13... and havnt been to new jersey since i was like 14...
gimme some candy!.

Tuesday, April 29th, 2008

Time:3:46 pm.
$10 says april will NOT go to the chariot show!
gimme some candy!.

Monday, March 24th, 2008

Subject:for all we could have done and all that could have been...
Time:5:17 pm.
Mood: frustrated.
if...
i never dated jessi... then
i would've never met shane... then
i would've never met casey... then
i would've never dropped out... then
i would've never met dennis... then
i would've never met Mr. xanax... then
i would've never met jason... then
i would've never met Ms. paxil... then
i would've never met kevin... then
i would've never met shawn... then
my life would've been so much simpler...
or at least filled with less drama...

if had never met jessi... by now... i would be emperor of this side of the galaxy. but instead i have to settle for superintendent of the tristate area...
gimme some candy!.

Thursday, March 20th, 2008

Time:3:38 am.
wow... in about 6 hours... i'll be 23...
gimme some candy!.

Monday, March 10th, 2008

Time:2:36 am.
LATE BREAKING NEWS!!!!


ok... i emailed shawn.... to tell him i didnt want to quit the band...
then kevin called him to see about getting his cut of the money he earned from the show.
then shawn explained his entire operation.
when me and kevin first joined... we made a deal with shawn...
four members in the band... 10% would be taken out of the entire sum of a payment from a venue and the rest would be split into four for the band members.
then after 3 or 4 shows we started asking where was our money.
not saying it was all about the money... but gas isnt free.
shawn told us back in october that he decided to start taking 40% out of the entire sum of money we earned as a band and then would split the rest with us.
well tonight shawn explained it all to us.
he was rather proud of his scheme...
he took ALL the money the band made... and kept it.
all of our cuts and earnings he put right into his pocket.
and since we didnt have our original deal in writing... there's nothing we can do but caught our losses...
which is $300 - $500...
according to the previous bassist and guitarist he used before us... this is exactly what he did with them...

shawn bilton is a thief, a liar, and there is no truth in him.
gimme some candy!.

Sunday, March 9th, 2008

Time:2:33 am.
ok... so...
here's the deal...
kevin (bass player) has a girlfriend that LOVES to start needless drama in the band.
after 8 months of this drama kevin decided today to quit the band.
since me and kevin were the 'new guys' in the band and shawn (singer) and dustin (drummer) had been together at least a year prior to our joining... they naturally assumed an "us and them" mentality.
whenever we went places... they would always go off and me and kevin would be left by ourselves...
this issue had been brought up several times in several "band meetings".
but shawn would always dismiss it as either kevin and i were just imagining it or that kevin and i were the ones doing it.
shifting the blame.

alright back to the point.

kevin's last show was tonight.
we played... we packed up... we left...
i get home and realize that i forgot to tell shawn that i would be out of town next week and would not be able to practice.
this is the reply i got from shawn.



cool man have fun this week...but with all the stuff and drama, I think we'll be praying about band changes...we all agree and talked to kevin about it too...thanks man and I pray God leads you guys to the right band since yall aren't happy here...thanks again


In Christ,
Shawn
Romans 8:28



so...
there you have it...
i was just fired via email.


aint that a bitch?
gimme some candy!.

Friday, February 29th, 2008

Time:11:18 pm.
my head hurts...
gimme some candy!.

Thursday, February 14th, 2008

Time:9:09 pm.
well i guess wasnt all that bad...
gimme some candy!.

Sunday, February 10th, 2008

Time:2:50 am.
Mood: sleepy.
just got back from the in lugoff... we opened for a band of 40+ year old guys... who's music was so much better than ours it was embarassing...
they were twice as old... and twice as heavy...
but in better news...
i got my cab lastnight!
had to drive all the way to florence in the middle of the night to get it...
a marshall 1960bv... with celestion vintage 30 speakers! *drool*
its sooooo huge! with the last cabinet i had... i could easily just sit down on it... use it as a seat during practice... but with this one... it has to be at least 4 feet tall... and its LOUD!!!
i will never be not heard again!
i officially have the greatest rig... EVER
nudie pictures soon!
gimme some candy!.

Sunday, February 3rd, 2008

Time:3:39 am.
Photobucket

^
see!!! one of them is me! and the other is the chick from full house!
gimme some candy!.

Friday, February 1st, 2008

Time:2:29 am.
played my first sold out show sunday... granted 99% of the people didnt come to see us... there was still 600+...
they all came to see candice cameron... i met her!... she signed my set list!... she took a picture with me!...
after everything was over we were back at our merch table... we sold at least a hundred cds and maybe 50 or sixty shirts... and then we had to sign them... me and kevin were actually off tearing down equipment when the others were like "hey you guys have to come sign cds"
now... pictures i understand...
but 'autographs'...
i've come to the conclusion...
the entire concept of a christian p&w band signing autographs...
is about as silly as a black evolutionist.
its like... "yay! we love Jesus! and maybe God too!... now idolize our poor penmanship!"
so i stuck to drawing smilies and other peoples names...

i have to think on this more...
gimme some candy!.

Saturday, January 19th, 2008

Time:5:00 am.
Mood: tired.
first official headlining show... and all but 7 people left mid set...
and we didnt get paid...
gimme some candy!.

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